My Jandek Plague Journal: 5/14/20 “Fragmentation”
“The form of a corporation is delimited/Why is it so vernacular/When you talk to a man/How do you get through.” I saw that the Streets had a new track out when I went to listen to Jandek and...
A series of essays reflecting on the coronavirus pandemic and the 2020 uprising in the US through the lens of the work of Houston outsider musician Jandek
“The form of a corporation is delimited/Why is it so vernacular/When you talk to a man/How do you get through.” I saw that the Streets had a new track out when I went to listen to Jandek and...
“Arrest yourself, don’t wait any longer/Cause yourself to cease/Stop and think about it.” Itaewon is shaping up to be the new cluster site in Korea and it’s sparking backlash against the expected populations: foreigners and the LGBTQ community....
“Not even water/Crossed my lips/I’m a gone, goner, goner/Hanging out to dry.” And as soon as my quarantine moment starts, it’s over. My colleague’s test came back negative this morning so it’s back to the office tomorrow. I...
“Wondering what your enthusiasm is gonna be like/When I see you again/I got a good feeling about it.” First day of teaching from quarantine and it was like starting over again. I floundered as all my teaching material...
“I’m off for the day/I shut out the lights/I watched the day pass/And in these moments/I intermittently escape/To that space around my epicenter.” After all the time watching things happen in the US, I am finally under quarantine....
“Go away and fall down dead/And when you’re all gone/I’ll live in peace in a house that’s not burned down.” Everyone’s trying to move backwards to live in the time before. If we reopen the economy, we can...
“Now that you’re here, tell me/Is it the best place you ever know/Because I’m at the best place I ever knew/And it’s just after I met you.” It was warm on my walk home today, but growing overcast...
“Hey, look at all the things gone by/It’s a stream of consciousness/Except of course those green plants/Are they really really real.” I haven’t used the opportunity of the pandemic to write my novel. Or start my video blog....
“I’m gonna sit in my front room where nobody stays/I need to describe what’s going to stay here and/What’s going away/Don’t you have a friend who can give you space/It’s what you need right now.” Everything’s gearing back...
“And here I am/How did I get here/How did I make this world/I thought it out and made a plan/And the elements combined/Presto — here’s reality.” I live and work in South Korea. How did that happen? I...
“I stopped the world/And I stepped out of it/I cut a clean path/I stepped out of it/I’ve gone and stepped out of everything.” Today felt like one of the first days of summer, where it’s not just warming...
“I’ll hold out a light/Let it shine for you/If nobody sees it/I still do what I do/I tried to be happy/What a foolish thing.” My Canadian friend says they’ve been having strange, vivid dreams, bordering on nightmares since...
“We paid/We surely did pay/I’m gonna get out of it/By going into it more/I’m gonna get out of it.” One week after reopening, Georgia had 1,000 new coronavirus cases in one day. Photos circulated of people gathering in...
“It crept and I saw it all along the way/It came on bit by bit/And I knew it all along/The only difference is now/It’s gone too far.” When did we stop talking about the virus, about ventilators and...
“I got this dream of my house/The one you gave me in my mind/I’m ready for the house/Let me build my house.” The first of 3 a capella albums from Jandek and the first album of the 21st...
“The journey is over, I’m falling down deep/I have no more promises to keep/This the feeling that won’t go away/This is the last time of the day.” I’d like to think that this is over, that we can...
“The last time I saw you/Was I don’t know when/That’s when I knew you/In all places I’d been.” I don’t have an emotional geography of Busan yet; I haven’t met people in the city to form those kinds...
“Doom/Pending doom/Pending doom/Pending doom/Pending doom/Pending doom/Pending doom.” The Attorney General has said the Justice Department may join with protesters paid by the administration in lawsuits to lift states’ stay-at-home orders. Is May Day still the target? Are they...
“But it’s so hard to tell you/I quit describing things/That’s what I did.” Talked to family last night, caught up with how they’re doing. Healthy and safe, keeping calm. Where they’d seemed frazzled a few weeks ago, they...
“Gotta go quick ending absurd/Who says the vision is nearly blurred/Fingers fingers fingers fingers/It’s the end this time I know.” I avoided mentioning “bleach” yesterday on purpose. Dwelling on each new absurdity and outrage is both pointless and...